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I didn't use to hate this time of year. But every year about this time, I go searching through my favorite internet sites and see OMG WTF BBQ EVERYONE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT 9/11 WAS AN INSIDE JOB. Now I could go on and on about the mountain of evidence that has the conspiracy theorists look retarded, but I don't want to go that way. Instead, if you read this and believe it was a conspiracy, or know someone who does, I want to ask you/them 2 major questions.
1) How did Bush pull it off? What you're telling me is that the leader of the free world, whom everyone regards almost universally as a fuck up managed to pull of the single greatest conspiracy the world as ever known. This would go beyond the Kennedy Assassination, the Moon Landing, anything. You're telling me that the same person who looks like a monkey and can barely string together sentences managed to lead a conspiracy that killed thousands of Americans? Let's suppose for a moment that you're right, he managed to pull it off. For what possible gain? To invade Iraq and get oil? Well as I look outside and see that $3.10 for a gallon of gas, I can see that invasion really paid off. But wait you say, he just went in with poor planning. This is where I say you are full of complete shit. The same man who managed to pull of a conspiracy for over 5 years and pull the wool over everyone's eye can't plan a simple war? The same generals and top men of the government can effortlessly slam Boeing jets into buildings, make sure no one can pin it on them, keep everyone quiet, and can't clean up a simple war? I'm telling you, I don't buy it.
2) The second, and really, more relevant question is, how much money would it take for you to keep quiet if the government murdered your best friend, or a family member? a quarter of a million? A million? 20 million? How much would it take to ease your conscious? Or better yet, how much money would it take for you to send your best friend to his death and be able to live with yourself afterward? That's what conspiracy theorists are saying. If they are right, thousands upon thousands of people would have to be paid off, watch close friends die, watch their country churn in anguish and KEEP QUIET ABOUT IT FOREVER. Not a word, not a peep. Could anyone really do that? Could you do that?
I didn't know anyone who worked at either the twin towers or the pentagon, I'm sure the three of you who read this probably didn't either. I do however, know a lot of firefighters. I know that every firefighter I have ever talked to would have done the same thing as those NY firefighters did without a second thought, at the same time knowing that I, if I were ever faced with that kind of situation, wouldn't know what to do other than crap myself. I refuse to believe those people died that day to satisfy the whim of some idiot in Washington D.C.Current Mood:  depressed |
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Ok, I know I'm not the most hip and on top of today's pop culture. That being said, what the fuck is a VLOG? This comes about from asking Dan Kelley to describe to me what the fuck is "emo" I was directed to a youtube video about emo gumby, which was entertaining as well as informative. Then I see all of these related links that just have a fucking face on them, like the angst ridden teen is looking at the camera. I come to find out that these idiots are just ranting to the camera and then posting it for everyone to see.
HEY FUCKTARDS!!!! IF YOU DO THIS, LISTEN UP! You apparently aren't old enough to remember the Internet as it once was. The whole reason for the Internet was for ANONYMOUS communication. If you make your name sexy_kitty3882 and post a lame ass geoshitties site about how you like to cut yourself and your rich ass parents didn't give you the brand new Hummer you wanted and you instead had to deal with the corvette, you had the benefit of being relatively anonymous, as in, the bigger bullies at school couldn't give you MORE shit for being a lame ass piece of shit. Sure, they might try to put two and two together since you just recently got a Hummer, but seriously you could say, it's the Internet, that could be ANYONE. Now, you emmy award winning shit for brains, you decided to take it one step further and make a sexy_kitty3882 name and post a fucking video of yourself crying about stupid retarded shit. What does this mean? That bully who wouldn't have been able to find you starts to watch emo gumby, because all bullies hate fat kids and people who are emo since they can't catch a football. He then looks over and goes, hey, is that fucking Tom? That fag kid I beat up the other day for just being a puss? Well what do you know, now Mr. Bully has a whole new sack of shit to beat you with. Good job fucker, seriously.Current Mood:  annoyed Current Music: Luke Bryan - All My Friends Say |
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I'm sitting at my computer downstairs, poised to do something I'm not sure I'm either ready to do, or should be doing in the first place. I am patiently waiting for my little brother can go to bed, so I can ask/confront my mother about why he isn't going to a regular school like I think he should. Why am I doing this? I guess because I feel responsible for how his life is going, and I don't like where it seems like he is headed. For those of you who know my brother, yes, he is a pain in the ass. He's loud, he can be whiny, hell, he can be downright flat out annoying as fuck. However, he is also one of the most creative, imaginative, and intelligent kids I have ever had the honor of knowing. I believe he has more potential than I ever had as a kid his age. Sure, I'm biased, I have every right to be. He is my only little brother. Maybe I'm the only who even sees that kind of potential in him, but I can't help but think that even if he has only a small percentage of the potential I think he has, it is going completely to waste by getting home schooled by my mother.
Do I think my mother is incapable of teaching him? no. Do I think she doesn't care about his future and is ignoring his well being? Quite the opposite, I suspect she thinks she can do a far better job than any school ever could, and she might be right in that regard. No one cares more about a child's knowledge than a mother. The problem I see, is not in the education (although I do think he should be doing a lot better than he is) it's that he doesn't have a single friend. Not a goddamn one. What kind of life is that for a little 10 year old kid? What kind of life is that for anyone for that matter? Could you imagine going through life only having relatives to hang out with?
So I'm going to try to do the only thing that I can do, and that's talk to mom about it. Do I think it will really change things? No, not immediately. I can only hope that maybe by putting the seed in, that maybe it will grow. Even if it all it does is get her to take him to the park or find some sort of organization with other home schooled children, I'll take that as a win. Hopefully he'll develop the kind of social skills he'll need to survive in a high school / college setting. He'll never reach his peak if he can't interact with the world around him.Current Mood: determined Current Music: none |
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So after a kick ass weekend involving watching Albert Pujols hit 3 homeruns in one game, hanging out with my awesome girlfriend, drinking and having tons of fun with friends, and getting my fx-51 processor and motherboard up and running, I have returned to Rolla. Upon walking up to my door, I find a letter taped to the door. I look up and down and similar notes are taped to all the other doors. This is what the letter said, and as the Lord as my witness, I am not making this up.... (yes it is in all caps)
DEAR TENANTS,
THIS LETTER IS TO REMIND YOU THAT WE HAVE LAUNDRY FACILITIES CONVENIENTLY LOCATED IN THE BASEMENT OF THIS BUILDING. tHERE ARE TWO WASHERS AND DRYERS. THEY ARE CHECKED AND CLEANED WEEKLY. PLEASE DO NOT WASH CLOTHES IN YOUR BATHUBS. THIS MAKES EXCESSIVE DAMPNESS AND CAUSES MOLD AND MILDEW TO GROW. THE MACHINES ARE VERY INEXPENSIVE TO USE. INSTRUCTIONS ARE POSTED ABOVE THE MACHINES FOR DOING LAUNDRY. IF YOU FIND ONE OF THE MACHINES OUT OF ORDER, PLEASE CLAL INVESMENT REALTY. THANK YOU.
I don't care if you are fucking foreign or not, who the fuck does their laundry in a fucking bathtub? How long have then been invented for christ sakes. What makes this worse is that this apartment complex is full of ROLLA COLLEGE STUDENTS!!!!! FUCKING ENGINEERS ARE USING BATHTUBS FOR WASHERS!!!!!!! What in the hell is this college coming to?Current Mood:  confused Current Music: None, haven't gotten itunes installed yet |
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Dear Grandpa + Grandma Regan,
How are you doing? How's the weather? It's really rainy up here. I wanna' tell you how many animals I've seen: 45 live deer, 4 dead deer, 1 live bear, 1 live porcupine, 2 live skunks, 6 dead skunks, 1 live beaver, 3 live muskrats, 1 live turtle, 1 live woodchuck, 1 dead woodchuck + 12 Canadian Honkers (special ducks). We've gone fishin' twice but only got a nibble. We might go fishin' tomorrow with minnows instead of garden worms. We've been up here for two weeks today and are leaving Sunday. I'll see you when I get back.
Love,
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Jun. 18th, 2006 @ 11:50 pm
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So I was logging into my B.net account a few weeks ago when to my surprise it told me my account was closed. Since I received no e-mail stating this, I thought this must be a mistake. So I submitted a request to Blizzard Tech Support inquiring why my account was terminated. I received the following "helpful" reply from one Chuck S.
Hello Jim,
This Warcraft III account was detected using a third-party program (hack) on Battle.net. This account is now permanently banned.
Any third-party program that is designed to affect the way the user interacts with Battle.net is considered a hack program. This includes seemingly harmless third-party utilities that work with the game to provide functions that were not included by the game designers. While many of these utilities might not have been created to disrupt the balance of the game, they alter the original design of the program.
Until the account expires; you will receive a message that the account has been closed. Once the account expires, it will be possible for anyone to create a new account with the same name. We cannot delete or expire the account manually. We will not be able to retrieve any characters, items, or account information (including Friends List).
If you are receiving the error message, "Your CD-Key is disabled from ladder play." when trying to join or create a ladder game, this indicates the CD-Key installed has been temporarily or permanently banned from playing ladder games on Battle.net. Even though the CD-Key is restricted from playing ladder games, you are still able to play Custom games with other players on Battle.net. First time offenders are banned from ladder play for one month and repeat offenders are banned from ladder play permanently. Users who are unsure if their CD-Key was temporarily or permanently banned will have to wait one month from the time the CD-Key was banned to determine the status.
We regret having to employ such extreme measures; however, certain activities (as detailed in the Battle.net Terms of Use Agreement and/or End User License Agreement of the game) have impaired the game play experience of the community as a whole and a severe response continues to be warranted. We will continue to monitor the Battle.net realms for malicious players.
We will not be able to supply any additional information beyond what is indicated in this email.
Thank you,
Chuck S.
Technical Support
What bothered me was the term "third party software" Now I admit to using maphacks in custom games, but I was fairly certain I had it off when I played ladder games. I was allowing the possibility that I hadn't and didn't realize it, but I have also heard that blizzard was having problems with logitech gaming software. If this was the case, it looked like I'd be fucked every time I played a ladder game, so I decided to try for more information, despite what good ol' Chuck said:
Could you give me any details besides some third-party program? I can't think of anything I use as a hack, other than my G15 keyboard for doing macros, or my G5 gaming mouse, both of which I wouldn't consider a hack or in anyway altering the game.
Jim.
Ok, so I left out the maphack...sue me. But here was helpful chuck's reply.
Hello Jim,
The account was closed by Blizzard Entertainment for violating the Battle.net Terms of Use Agreement and/or End User License Agreement of the game. The account will not be restored. You may check our Account Closure Frequently Asked Questions page at ("http://www.blizzard.com/support/?id=aInformation0756p1") for more information.
Feel free to contact us regarding any other technical issues, but regarding this account, we are unable to discuss this further.
Thank you,
Chuck S.
What makes this email so funny is that IT DOESNT TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT THE FUCKING QUESTION I ASKED IN THE FIRST PLACE. I understood WHY it was closed down, numbnuts. What I had clearly asked is what third-party software was detected. So here we go again.
I understand that you closed it for some vague reference from the terms of use agreement. What I'm asking for is a detailed account of what program was detected. If it was due to the gaming software that I use, I want to make sure this problem does not happen again. Furthermore, I want to say that I'm very displeased with how Blizzard handles these situations. If you summarily terminate accounts without adequate warning or reason, it degrades from the reputation that Blizzard has worked so hard to achieve. Now I'm sure you think I'm some whiny person or that I was caught fair and square. I can only assure you that I was very surprised when I tried to log on and found that my account had been closed, and without warning. I have used Battle.net for many years without incident and the only changes made to my computer were the gaming software that I had already mentioned.
In summary, I would again ask for a detailed account of the third-party software that was supposedly detected so that I may make adequate changes in the future.
Sincerely,
Jim
I figured I was too short in the first email, and figured it took a longer and wordier approach to get Chuck S.'s attention.
Hello Jim,
Technical support does not have access to this information and there is no place to forward these requests.
Thank you,
Chuck S.
Apparently I was wrong, but I wasn't going to take this formally worded "fuck you" at that.
Chuck S.
So what you're telling me is, there is no way for me to know what might have been running when you guys detected third party software? Would you care to explain to me how I am supposed to fix the problem so it doesn't happen again? Furthermore, since no one at blizzard can tell me what third party software I was using, how can you even be sure that the acusation is accurate? And if this happens again down the line, how can i possibly be blamed when no one will give me any sort of fact other than the most basic and vague of them? Is there some sort of supervisor I can contact who will give me better answers than you Chuck S.?
Jim
Now again, keep in mind that I was afraid that they detected my logitech gaming software, which allows me to run macros and things in game. I figured it was more likely the maphack, but then again, I couldn't remember if I had it on or not, since I could give a shit less about ladder games. I think my record on that account was 4-4 over the course of a year and a half. Apparently though, I got Chuck's attention.
Hello Jim,
I can assign you over to my supervisor but he will also be unable to provide you with the information that you are requesting.
Thank you,
Chuck S.
About an hour later, I received this email, from one Jamal D.
Hello,
Chuck S forwarded your email on to me about your account closure. Your account was closed
due to a "maphack" application that was detected on a machine that your account was used on.
This 3rd party program could have been downloaded from certain website that seek to steal accounts.
Installing a trojan in the background.
At this point I recommend that your system be thoroughly scanned by an Anti-virus program to make
sure that it is not compromised. If you have ever used any character editors then this as well could
cause issues. I recommend that these removed if this is the case.
Unfortunately, since the account was closed by Blizzard Entertainment for violating the Battle.net Terms of Use Agreement and/or End User License Agreement of the game, it will not be restored. You may
check our Account Closure Frequently Asked Questions page at ("http://www.blizzard.com/support/?id=aInformation0756p1") for more information.
Feel free to contact us regarding any other technical issues, but regarding this account, we are unable to discuss this further.
Sincerely,
Jamal D.
Senior Online Support
So after a week of email, it looks like Chuck was wrong. They DID have a place to forward this kind of stuff to, and in fact, tech support HAS THAT INFORMATION AT THE READY. Imagine my surprise....
But where does the conspiracy come into play? I think that Chuck S. and Jamal D. are really the same person. Both have 5 letter first names and one initial. And if you look at Chuck S. email and the email of Jamal D., you'll find most of it IS WORD FOR WORD THE SAME. I'm thinking about still sending replies to both of them and just see if i can get even more information or discussion out of something that is supposed to be closed.
Jun. 9th, 2006 @ 03:20 am
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Most of this entry is going to be a series of things that piss me off, feel free to read or not, makes no fucking difference to me.
1) Overdramatic Bullshit - As I have often said numerous times on this, I thought dramatic bullshit would stop in college. There isn't any reason for it anymore. Sure it was needed back in the days of high school when popularity was everyone's goal. But now everyone I know is in or has graduate from college. There is no more reason for overdramatic bullshit people. Grow the fuck up. Right now drama should rank somewhere below caring what you ate 3 weeks ago. This is supposed to be the best time of your life, and to experiment as much as you want because right now fucking up doesn't really draw a lot of consequences, as long as the fuck up isn't on the major league level.
2) People bitching about Rolla - Guys, and yes i'm saying guys because i don't hear the 5 girls bitching a lot, this school is not that bad. We are an hour and a half away from st. louis and columbia. If you don't like it here, get the fuck out. I'm sure columbia and st. louis would be happy to take rolla drop outs, because most of the time, the average rolla drop out is about 100 times smarter then the average columbia or st. louis drop out. This will only improve everyone's life. You get the fuck out of a place you don't want to be, and I don't have to overhear you bitching about the lack of women. If you want to get laid, you came to the wrong place. If you want to go to really big parties where there are a bunch of orgies and shit you see on whatever porn site you frequent, you came to the wrong place. However, if you want to have some friends, go to some decent parties, hang out and get a good education, well then by god stay here and shut the fuck up.
3) Plastic snake killing - I have no idea why there is such a fascination with drunk people and killing plastic snakes here. I especially have no idea why people need a tree trunk 2/3 the size of themselves to do it. A fucking lighter would take care of it in most instances, or a pocket knife. Those instruments are much easier to carry around and to class then a fucking tree trunk. This is an engineering school guys, lets start making things more efficient.
Those are at least my top three for the moment. Now on to other news.
Right now my life is pretty much as good as it gets. I have a great girlfriend, I have a part time job to make money, and I'm doing well in school. I'll probably be spending the summer in rolla working at wal mart mostly because i won't have to live at home then. The less I live there, the easier it will be when I move out permanently. Oh and there will be a huge party at rolla on March 16,17, and 18. Everyone should come down, bring some alcohol and have a good time.
Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 01:55 pm
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(12:28:05 PM) BgJimWalkr: FREDDY! WHERE ARE YOU I NEED YOU NOW
(12:28:23 PM) Freddy: JIM! I AM AT MY APARTMENT NOW
(12:28:36 PM) BgJimWalkr: FREDDY! WHAT ARE YOU DOING TONIGHT!
(12:28:49 PM) Freddy: JIM!I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I AM DOING TONIGHT
(12:29:03 PM) BgJimWalkr: FREDDY! WOULD YOU LIKE TO HANG OUT WITH ME AND BERTON TONIGHT AT 8
(12:29:24 PM) Freddy: LIKE A HINDU AND HIS COW
(12:29:35 PM) BgJimWalkr: is that a yes?
(12:29:36 PM) Freddy: (thats a yes)
Feb. 9th, 2006 @ 12:30 pm
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Random commercial about how the public should help society through charity.
Berton: "Well if i worked 3 days a week and made 500,000 dollars, I would help with charity too."
Later in the evening
Fred: "Now I'm the poster child for being pussy whipped but.."
Me: "No Dan is."
Fred: "Ok you're right, but I am his understudy."
Feb. 5th, 2006 @ 06:34 pm
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Said tonight by Fred to Nick:
"You gonna be wearing that gay shirt when the girls show up?"
Oh yeah, I GRADUATED!!!!!!!!
Dec. 17th, 2005 @ 07:02 pm
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(20:26:15) enderenderthrrer: JIM!! Where are I need you now!!
(20:27:55) me: BERTON!! I AM AT MY APARTMENT NOW
(20:28:15) enderenderthrrer: OK!! WHAT are you doing now!!
(20:28:29) me: BERTON!! I AM FIXING MY TOLIET SEAT NOW
(20:28:45) enderenderthrrer: OMG!! I have to see that!!
(20:29:01) enderenderthrrer: I will be there soon!!
(20:29:30) enderenderthrrer logged out.
In other news.. I'm done with all of my classes for my B.S. degree in Computer Engineering! Graduation is Saturday, it's going to kick some serious ass.
Dec. 15th, 2005 @ 09:46 pm
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I found this and just had to share.
Top 30 Chuck Norris facts.
1. Chuck Norris' tears cure cancer. Too bad he has never cried.
2. When Chuck Norris plays Oregon Trail his family does not die from cholera or dysentery, but rather roundhouse kicks to the face. He also requires no wagon, since he carries the oxen, axels, and buffalo meat on his back. He always makes it to Oregon before you.
3. Rather than being birthed like a normal child, Chuck Norris instead decided to punch his way out of his mother's womb. Shortly thereafter he grew a beard.
4. Chuck Norris recently had the idea to sell his urine as a canned beverage. We know this beverage as Red Bull.
5. Chuck Norris built a time machine and went back in time to stop the JFK assassination. As Oswald shot, Chuck met all three bullets with his beard, deflecting them. JFK's head exploded out of sheer amazement.
6. Chuck Norris's girlfriend once asked him how much wood a woodchuck could chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood. He then shouted, "HOW DARE YOU RHYME IN THE PRESENCE OF CHUCK NORRIS!" and ripped out her throat. Holding his girlfriend's bloody throat in his hand he bellowed, "Don't fuck with Chuck!" Two years and five months later he realized the irony of this statement and laughed so hard that anyone within a hundred mile radius of the blast went deaf.
7. Chuck Norris sold his soul to the devil for his rugged good looks and unparalleled martial arts ability. Shortly after the transaction was finalized, Chuck roundhouse kicked the devil in the face and took his soul back. The devil, who appreciates irony, couldn't stay mad and admitted he should have seen it coming. They now play poker every second Wednesday of the month.
8. To prove it isn't that big of a deal to beat cancer. Chuck Norris smoked 15 cartons of cigarettes a day for 2 years and aquired 7 different kinds of cancer only to rid them from his body by flexing for 30 minutes. Beat that, Lance Armstrong.
9. The original theme song to the Transformers was actually "Chuck Norris--more than meets the eye, Chuck Norris--robot in disguise," and starred Chuck Norris as a Texas Ranger who defended the earth from drug-dealing Decepticons and could turn into a pick-up. This was far too much awesome for a single show, however, so it was divided.
10. Chuck Norris was the fourth Wiseman. He brought baby Jesus the gift of "beard". Jesus wore it proudly to his dying day. The other Wisemen, jealous of Jesus' obvious gift favoritism, used their combined influence to have Chuck omitted from the Bible. Shortly after all three died of roundhouse kick related deaths.
11. Chuck Norris lives by only one rule: No fat Chicks.
12. When Chuck Norris's wife burned the turkey one Thanksgiving, Chuck said, "Don't worry about it honey," and went into his backyard. He came back five minutes later with a live turkey, ate it whole, and when he threw it up a few seconds later it was fully cooked and came with cranberry sauce. When his wife asked him how he had done it, he gave her a roundhouse kick to the face and said, "Never question Chuck Norris."
13. Chuck Norris once shot a German plane down with his finger, by yelling, "Bang!"
14. A man once asked Chuck Norris if his real name is "Charles". Chuck Norris did not respond, he simply stared at him until he exploded.
15. Chuck Norris does not sleep. He waits.
16. Chuck Norris can make a woman climax by simply pointing at her and saying "booya".
17. Chuck Norris once went to a frat party, and proceeded to roundhouse every popped collar in sight. He then drank three kegs and shit on their floor, just because he's Chuck Norris.
18. Before each filming of Walker: Texas Ranger, Chuck Norris is injected with five times the lethal dose of elephant tranquilzer. This is, of course, to limit his strength and mobility, in an attempt to lower the fatality rate of the actors he fights.
19. Chuck Norris took my virginity, and he will sure as hell take yours. If you're thinking to yourself, "That's impossible, I already lost my virginity.", then you are dead wrong.
20. Chuck Norris found out about Conan O'Brien's lever that shows clips from "Walker: Texas Ranger" and is working on a way to make it show clips of Norris having sex with Conan's wife.
21. The chief export of Chuck Norris is pain.
22. Chuck Norris doesn't have normal white blood cells like you and I. His have a small black ring around them. This signifies that they are black belts in every form of martial arts and they roundhouse kick the shit out of viruses. That's why Chuck Norris never gets ill.
23. Chuck Norris frequently signs up for beginner karate classes, just so he can "accidentally" beat the shit out of little kids.
24. Chuck Norris once tried to sue Burger King after they refused to put razor wire in his Whopper Jr., insisting that that actually is "his" way.
25. One of the greatest cover-ups of the last century was the fact that Hitler did not commit suicide in his bunker, but was in fact tea-bagged to death by Chuck Norris.
26. Chuck Norris punched a woman in the vagina when she didn't give him exact change.
27. Chuck Norris is currently suing NBC, claiming Law and Order are trademarked names for his left and right legs.
28. After much debate, President Truman decided to drop the atomic bomb on Hiroshima rather than the alternative of sending Chuck Norris. His reasoning? It was more "humane".
29. If you can see Chuck Norris, he can see you. If you can't see Chuck Norris you may be only seconds away from death.
30. Chuck Norris ruins the endings of Harry Potter books for children who just bought one for the hell of it. When they start crying Chuck Norris calmly says, "I'll give you something to cry about," and roundhouse kicks them in the face.
Dec. 7th, 2005 @ 02:32 pm
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For those that may not know, I bought a camera cell phone recently. I figred I would probably never use the camera feature, save for taking pictures of friends so it will pop up a picture when they call. Today, however, I actually used it to take a picture I never would have been able to take before, and the moment would have been lost forever.
Today, everyone, I found some bread. While I wasn't actually looking for bread, I found a shitload of it.
Nov. 29th, 2005 @ 04:22 pm
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*Note to dan kelley, this is old news, no need to read*
I consider myself a reasonable person. I don't ask for a lot, nor do I expect a lot from people. About the only thing I do expect is to get at least some sort of basic respect from people. Tonight, I received none of that.
Emily came over to talk to me tonight. This breakup, for reasons still unknown to me since she did the breaking up, has been hard on her. Now I, being the understandable guy that I am, have been trying to talk to her as much as I can to help her through it. Maybe that was my first mistake, I don't know. When Emily came in, one of her roommates followed her over, and they proceded to whisper about stuff in the living room while I was in my room listening to music. Once I realized there were people in my apartment, I turned around to look, and jenny whispered something else and then left. When I asked Emily what was going on, she said her roommate didn't want her to come over, because she shouldn't be depending on me or some bullshit like that. I said whatever, and we proceeded to talk. A little while later, her roommate shows up again, with her friend. They walk into my room, and proceed to tell Emily that she needs to come back to the apartment to help her hangnail. I was basically ignored this entire time. IN MY OWN FUCKING ROOM! IN MY OWN FUCKING APARTMENT.
What really pissed me off is that instead of arguing, Emily just left with them. Now I understand that we're not going out anymore and I'm not looking for any special treatment or anything, but we were in the middle of a damn conversation. She should have told them to mind their own business. And, I figured it was common courtsey to at least acknowledge the host of the damn apartment. And then to use that bullshit excuse, and barge in saying "we're kidnapping emily." That is such bullshit it made me want to punch them. That just shows a complete lack of respect for my intelligence for using such a bullshit excuse, and then actually expecting that whatever she needed emily to do superceded what we were doing. If she has a problem, she should have said it, instead of coming in here and being a complete bitch. And, if my opinion mattered to Emily, which i've been constantly told it does, she should have told her to mind her own business and finished our conversation.
I did end up drawing the line though. After emily tried to apologize, I told her the time for that shit was over. Either things start to change, or the friendship is over and I'll just cut contact with her. I'm getting too old for this bullshit, and I'm simply not going to put up with it anymore. Still haven't decided what to do with the roommate though.
Sorry for the rant, and peace out for dan kelley for listening earlier, but it still has me pissed off.
Nov. 8th, 2005 @ 12:44 am
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Lots of stuff has been happening since the last post. For all of you who don't keep up in the world of sports, the white sox ended up winning the world series, which i find to be a huge load of steaming shit. The White Sox did not win the world series because they are the best team, they are just incredibly lucky. How so you may ask? Well there was the strikeout of a white sox batter that helped the white sox win the game. There was a foul ball that was called a hit by pitch that allowed the whitesox to win another game. The umpiring for the NLCS was complete shit, on both sides. While I'm not in favor of instant replies in baseball, I don't think it would hurt the game to have the 5 other umpires tell the shitty one that he's full of shit and made the wrong call. Not like anything is going to change while Bud "Fuck me up the Ass" Selig is in charge though.
The haunted house was fucking awesome, thanks for all who attended. While I don't have the exact numbers of the amount of girls who wet themselves, judging from the trend i would say they probably came close to 50 or so. It was a good ass time, with lots of haneing out.
More recent news includes that I finally have classes for graduate school, a whopping nine hours... I need to find something else to do here to help occupy my time. Judging from the amount of Job interviews nick has had, I would say odds are good that I'll have the apartment to myself next semester, so anyone looking for a good party, let me know and we'll throw a good one. Also, anyone reading nick's blog and knows about the wall, we're almost 2/3 of the way done with it. If anyone wants to help contribute, come on down.
Here's a crock of shit that happened today. I took a psychology test on Monday, and the last problem was worth 15 points. Apparently, the teacher was so disgusted with most of the class's answers, she just didn't grade it and GAVE US THE 15 POINTS. I'm going to repeat that for those who didn't catch that. SHE GAVE US THE 15 POINTS. Then, she told us in class that we have to redo the problem in order to earn them!!!! IF WE HAVE TO EARN THEM, THEN YOU DIDN'T GIVE THEM TO US DID YOU ASSHOLE???
She then sent out an email to the class, especially to the ones that weren't at class today, here was the excerpt. "I didn't grade the last exam question and gave everyone the 15 points for it. To earn those 15 points, I have asked everyone to redo their answer to the exam question. If you were not in class today - I know who you are because I still have your exams. I expect you to redo your answer. If you choose not to, I'll grade what you turned in and that grade may go down even more."
I don't know about anyone else, but that just screams "I'm a bitch look at me go!" Doesn't matter to me though, I was in class in a huge group of people that redid the answer so we should get all 15 points.
Party at my house in O'fallon saturday night anytime after 6:30. Let me know if you want to come so I have an idea of whose going to be there.
Nov. 2nd, 2005 @ 12:20 pm
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Other than some family shit, (Yeah, my moms side of the family is still causing shit) things are starting to look up. For instance, this email I received today.
Dear James,
Congratulations, you have been admitted to the University of Missouri - Rolla, Missouri's technological research university.
Your official acceptance letter signed by the Director, Lynn Stichnote, will be sent to you within a few days. Please look at the acceptance letter packet carefully to see if you need to meet any condition(s) of your acceptance.
If I can be of further assistance, please let me know.
Cordially,
Julie Sibley
That's what I've been waiting for for the last couple weeks, official acceptance to the graduate school problem here in rolla. Masters degree, here I come!
Also, on Friday night, I'm trying to get a large group of people to go to the firefighter haunted house. It's at the old Noah's Ark hotel in St. Charles, and we're hoping to get there right as it opens at 7 o'clock. It's 15 dollars, with all proceeds going to three different charites, backstoppers which helps fallen firefighter familes, the Missouri Rescue team, and a water group for handicapped kids. It's going to be kick ass, they've already had at least 8 or 9 girls wet themselves. If you'd like to go, let me know and if I forgot any details here, I'll be sure to let you know. Even if you don't like haunted houses, it's going to charity, and there's going to be a lot of people there, so at least go for the hane out factor.
Game 1 for the Astros vs. Cardinals is tomorrow at 7 PM. I'll be watching, you should be too.
Oct. 11th, 2005 @ 11:58 am
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I don't know who besides my regular commenters read this thing, but to those who think I am somehow going to kill myself over this breakup, you couldn't be more wrong. I'm not happy with what happened, I'm not sure I ever will be. That doesn't mean I am going to kill myself. It all comes down to Emily made a choice, and it doesn't matter if I agree with it or not, that's what happened. I'll deal with it and move on and I'll try, as Justin said, "to kick ass at EVERYTHING"
I was thinking alot today. I spend two years funneling energy into a relationship. Towards the end, it seemed like I was expending the vast majority of my energy trying to make it work, because I don't believe in just simply giving up. Now I have to find other things to funnel that energy into. Maybe into doing better in school, maybe I'll start exercising more. I don't know for sure, but i'm sure I'll think of something.
Oct. 8th, 2005 @ 09:02 pm
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So today was supposed to be a big date for me and emily. We hadn't seen each other much, no school tomorrow, so we figured we'd have a night out. I was running somewhat low on money, so i figured i'd just cook myself. I pulled some steaks out of the freezer last night, got up early today, went to wal mart and got potatoes and a ceaser salad mix so i could fix her favorite meal, steak, baked potatoes, and a side salad. I cleaned the apartment, cleaned my room, even vaccumed. I sat down on my couch at 3, popped open a beer and started to enjoy the cardinal game. Thirty minutes later emily calls me and asks if she can come over. I say sure. A few minutes later she walks in, sits down, and says "I want to break up." After a lot of questions, and getting hardly any answers, she left. And that was it. Two years down the drain in less then 15 minutes. The thing is, I wasn't even that upset. I'm still not upset. Maybe it hasn't hit me yet, but I don't think that's it. No, I'm definately feeling anger a lot more than I do hurt.
This isn't the first time I've been broken up with without a reason. What bothers me is that she promised if she had a problem with our relationship that she would talk first, we would try and fix things, and if it couldn't be fixed, we would break up. There was none of that. She walked into my room with her mind made up. She was upset, she cried a lot. Apparently she was still crying hours later. I guess I'm just not as surprised as I should be, I had a feeling this was going to happen, but the main reason I got out of her was that it was a good relationship, but she wasn't as happy as she could be. Now i ask what the fuck does that mean? I mean seriously, I know I'm not exactly the best looking guy on the planent, but she didn't want for anything while she was with me. I was always over at her place make sure she was happy and dealing well with stuff. I just wish it could have been a better goodbye. I wish there had been some sort of discussion. It just feels like she decided to give up, give up on the relationship, give up on me..
But hey, when has it mattered what I really wanted in life? So girls, I'm single again, you can resume trying to knock my door down to get a date with me. First come, first serve basis.
Oct. 7th, 2005 @ 12:09 am
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I've been using the new Google Desktop 2 (a very useful piece of software) and it has a What's Hot panel that has news stories that are popular on the internet. The vast majority of these are news articles blasting the government's response to Hurrican Katrina. My mother sent me the following article, and while I'm not sure I agree with all of it, it really made me think.
"An Unnatural Disaster: A Hurricane Exposes the Man-Made Disaster of the Welfare State
by Robert Tracinski Sep 02, 2005 by Robert Tracinski
It has taken four long days for state and federal officials to figure out how to deal with the disaster in New Orleans. I can't blame them, because it has also taken me four long days to figure out what is going on there. The reason is that the events there make no sense if you think that we are confronting a natural disaster.
If this is just a natural disaster, the response for public officials is obvious: you bring in food, water, and doctors; you send transportation to evacuate refugees to temporary shelters; you send engineers to stop the flooding and rebuild the city's infrastructure. For journalists, natural disasters also have a familiar pattern: the heroism of ordinary people pulling together to survive; the hard work and dedication of doctors, nurses, and rescue workers; the steps being taken to clean up and rebuild.
Public officials did not expect that the first thing they would have to do is to send thousands of armed troops in armored vehicle, as if they are suppressing an enemy insurgency. And journalists--myself included--did not expect that the story would not be about rain, wind, and flooding, but about rape, murder, and looting.
But this is not a natural disaster. It is a man-made disaster.
The man-made disaster is not an inadequate or incompetent response by federal relief agencies, and it was not directly caused by Hurricane Katrina. This is where just about every newspaper and television channel has gotten the story wrong.
The man-made disaster we are now witnessing in New Orleans did not happen over the past four days. It happened over the past four decades. Hurricane Katrina merely exposed it to public view.
The man-made disaster is the welfare state.
For the past few days, I have found the news from New Orleans to be confusing. People were not behaving as you would expect them to behave in an emergency--indeed, they were not behaving as they have behaved in other emergencies. That is what has shocked so many people: they have been saying that this is not what we expect from America. In fact, it is not even what we expect from a Third World country.
When confronted with a disaster, people usually rise to the occasion. They work together to rescue people in danger, and they spontaneously organize to keep order and solve problems. This is especially true in America. We are an enterprising people, used to relying on our own initiative rather than waiting around for the government to take care of us. I have seen this a hundred times, in small examples (a small town whose main traffic light had gone out, causing ordinary citizens to get out of their cars and serve as impromptu traffic cops, directing cars through the intersection) and large ones (the spontaneous response of New Yorkers to September 11).
So what explains the chaos in New Orleans?
To give you an idea of the magnitude of what is going on, here is a description from a Washington Times story:
"Storm victims are raped and beaten; fights erupt with flying fists, knives and guns; fires are breaking out; corpses litter the streets; and police and rescue helicopters are repeatedly fired on.
"The plea from Mayor C. Ray Nagin came even as National Guardsmen poured in to restore order and stop the looting, carjackings and gunfire....
"Last night, Gov. Kathleen Babineaux Blanco said 300 Iraq-hardened Arkansas National Guard members were inside New Orleans with shoot-to-kill orders.
" 'These troops are...under my orders to restore order in the streets,' she said. 'They have M-16s, and they are locked and loaded. These troops know how to shoot and kill and they are more than willing to do so if necessary and I expect they will.' "
The reference to Iraq is eerie. The photo that accompanies this article shows National Guard troops, with rifles and armored vests, riding on an armored vehicle through trash-strewn streets lined by a rabble of squalid, listless people, one of whom appears to be yelling at them. It looks exactly like a scene from Sadr City in Baghdad.
What explains bands of thugs using a natural disaster as an excuse for an orgy of looting, armed robbery, and rape? What causes unruly mobs to storm the very buses that have arrived to evacuate them, causing the drivers to drive away, frightened for their lives? What causes people to attack the doctors trying to treat patients at the Super Dome?
Why are people responding to natural destruction by causing further destruction? Why are they attacking the people who are trying to help them?
My wife, Sherri, figured it out first, and she figured it out on a sense-of-life level. While watching the coverage last night on Fox News Channel, she told me that she was getting a familiar feeling. She studied architecture at the Illinois Institute of Chicago, which is located in the South Side of Chicago just blocks away from the Robert Taylor Homes, one of the largest high-rise public housing projects in America. "The projects," as they were known, were infamous for uncontrollable crime and irremediable squalor. (They have since, mercifully, been demolished.)
What Sherri was getting from last night's television coverage was a whiff of the sense of life of "the projects." Then the "crawl"--the informational phrases flashed at the bottom of the screen on most news channels--gave some vital statistics to confirm this sense: 75% of the residents of New Orleans had already evacuated before the hurricane, and of the 300,000 or so who remained, a large number were from the city's public housing projects. Jack Wakeland then gave me an additional, crucial fact: early reports from CNN and Fox indicated that the city had no plan for evacuating all of the prisoners in the city's jails--so they just let many of them loose. There is no doubt a significant overlap between these two populations--that is, a large number of people in the jails used to live in the housing projects, and vice versa.
There were many decent, innocent people trapped in New Orleans when the deluge hit--but they were trapped alongside large numbers of people from two groups: criminals--and wards of the welfare state, people selected, over decades, for their lack of initiative and self-induced helplessness. The welfare wards were a mass of sheep--on whom the incompetent administration of New Orleans unleashed a pack of wolves.
All of this is related, incidentally, to the apparent incompetence of the city government, which failed to plan for a total evacuation of the city, despite the knowledge that this might be necessary. But in a city corrupted by the welfare state, the job of city officials is to ensure the flow of handouts to welfare recipients and patronage to political supporters--not to ensure a lawful, orderly evacuation in case of emergency.
No one has really reported this story, as far as I can tell. In fact, some are already actively distorting it, blaming President Bush, for example, for failing to personally ensure that the Mayor of New Orleans had drafted an adequate evacuation plan. The worst example is an execrable piece from the Toronto Globe and Mail, by a supercilious Canadian who blames the chaos on American "individualism." But the truth is precisely the opposite: the chaos was caused by a system that was the exact opposite of individualism.
What Hurricane Katrina exposed was the psychological consequences of the welfare state. What we consider "normal" behavior in an emergency is behavior that is normal for people who have values and take the responsibility to pursue and protect them. People with values respond to a disaster by fighting against it and doing whatever it takes to overcome the difficulties they face. They don't sit around and complain that the government hasn't taken care of them. They don't use the chaos of a disaster as an opportunity to prey on their fellow men.
But what about criminals and welfare parasites? Do they worry about saving their houses and property? They don't, because they don't own anything. Do they worry about what is going to happen to their businesses or how they are going to make a living? They never worried about those things before. Do they worry about crime and looting? But living off of stolen wealth is a way of life for them.
The welfare state--and the brutish, uncivilized mentality it sustains and encourages--is the man-made disaster that explains the moral ugliness that has swamped New Orleans. And that is the story that no one is reporting.
Source: TIA Daily -- September 2, 2005"
Maybe my last post about this was a little harsh, clearly there have been some lack of planning on the government side, but I wouldn't blame Bush's administration for it. I think this same thing would have happened regardless of the number of troops in Iraq, or if there was a democrat in office. The main thing that got me with this article was the explanation for all of the violence and looting, especially against those who are trying to rescue people. If my father were to ever die in a fire while trying to save a life, I could understand that, and accept it. That's part of the job of being a firefighter. But if he was shot by some asshole while he was trying to save someone...that I couldn't understand and couldn't accept.
I had always thought that humans were always evolving and trying to better ourselves. Then I hear and read things like this and I wonder just how far we actually have come.
Sep. 8th, 2005 @ 04:26 pm
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